AS THE HEART GROWS DARKER

     Or should the title be a version of Conrad's Heart of Darkness? Whichever way one chooses, the darkness is there, ever growing, shutting out the light and where are we? We are apparently standing there hopeless and helpless. Last night I took a last minute look at the latest news and read of that damned man's plans for a National Emergency plan. This, for an emergency that was never there until forced upon us, foisted upon us due to cruel and prejudiced actions and now the plan is to just about cut out the heart of the country.
    There is NO national emergency other than the one over a million people are facing. 800,000 federal employees, add to that the number of their dependents, and then add to that the concentric circles forming as their money fails to enter the economy as stores go broke for lack of customers, as people with heart look for ways to help those going without pay.
     So the heart of the nation is being blackened by the behavior and the rants of one Demented toddler stuffed into an overgrown body and an undergrown brain in a soulless being. Is that sounding harsh to one's ears? Well, it should and Pelosi has it right when she said that as a mother of five and a grandmother of nine, she recognizes a tantrum when she sees one. Oh yes, she is 100% correct and that is a shame, a growing blot on our nation's heart. This is not a sane man.
     The national emergency would have the President allowed to circumvent Congress, or in other words, make one branch of our government totally powerless, useless, and cutting out the heart of our democracy. A democracy is a state of being, a political state, wherein all are free to voice an opinion that does not advocate hatred or violence, thus allowing for a constantly changing shape. It allows for people to work together, to compromise, to find pathways to agreement and acceptance, but a national emergency says NO to all that. There are no other voices other than the President's and when that one voice is demented and heartless, soulless, then this is the heart of it all. This is the heart of darkness which is growing apace and eclipsing the true heart of democracy.
     And all this leaves my heart sobbing, crying, wondering, in despair, if we are seeing the end of democracy in this country. When we have government officials, wealthy with money and fortune they have gained, many with dirty hands and hearts, when they state they can "feel" with the people but not understand why they are going to food pantries, well, where does one go from here? How much lower can this country's administration fall? De Vos broke some bones and she is in a wheelchair for a few months. Wonder if she had any trouble getting medical help? But I guess not for she is now covered forever under the gold plated plan of Congress. Forever!! How the hell can any one of these people, so concerned with their perks, made up or real, so concerned with their own needs and inflated egos, so far away from the reality of life for 99% of the population of the country, how can they understand a damn thing!!! And the answer is - they cannot and worse, they could care less.
    The whole heart of our country is tainted, growing diseased tissue even as it continues to shut down. Nasty stuff going on. How is it that over 30 people, including Kushner, were denied clearance for security reasons and yet they were all overruled by guess who? How is that possible? It sends the worst message ever as we now work with a government of overinflated egos, less than normal understanding of humanity, and incompetent administrators.
     I shudder to think of the ever growing possibility of this country making real the sounds of battle rumbling just over the horizon, even as the doomsday clock is moved up to two minutes before midnight. I shudder to think of the smell of smoke, of the deafening cries and screams of the wounded, the beyond repair abyss that rips through the heart of this nation and we become what, several ministates?! What are we doing? What are we allowing to happen? Why are we allowing this man with full blown dementia and overgrown ego to ruin our country, to take it down, to literally destroy the heart of it all. And make no mistake about it - that is his aim, to control the country, to shut down any opposition, to rule as the dictators he so admires.
     I have never been more frightened than I am now for the future of this country, of the world, of the future for our kids. The heart grows darker, the visions seen by the mind's eye grow darker, more corrupted, and we must ask ourselves what we have wrought here, what have we allowed and continue to allow? We will be the generation who destroyed the best hope for the world. 
     The heart is truly growing darker, dimmer, by almost every hour that passes by. Even the Dammit doll will not help here. Time, perhaps, for the people to rise up and shout out their opposition to this destruction of our democracy. Time for true democracy to work and if the people in office cannot understand this, then throw them out. Recall, indict, impeach, expel from office, remove for cause, for incompetence, for inability to carry out the job, for treason to the country and its people. Make them fear for their seats if they do not get to the true heart of it all and do the right things. Only then will we have a possibility of a future. Only then will we be able to restore the heart of it all. Only then will we be able to stave off the growing rot at the heart of it all.