BLUE ALL AROUND

     One day is bad enough, and I thought I had broken its back yesterday afternoon, but last night and this morning it is right back at ya' again. Topping the whole bad karma day is the fact that the blue is all around - personally and in the macro world as well.
 There are times with PD that one feels off, a feeling that brings one down, feels low and despairing, unsure of what the future will bring or even how long  a future one has. It is not a question of self pity, or being so self focused that one forgets that others have problems as well, even worse ones, for it is not a selfish 'mood', but one caused mainly by the disease itself, the mix of it all in body and mind and the only thing left to do is try to willfully overcome it, look past it, and hope for a better time to follow.
     Thought I had it beat by yesterday afternoon when I had a good time at Movement, pounding away, laughing and singing, talking with friends, and yet, here we are again. Blues redux!
     What makes it worse is the fact that like it or not, I cannot turn away from the situation of the country and the world. Sharing grief and troubles does not thin out one's own blues but rather builds upon it, especially when one realizes the helplessness one individual feels in the face of massive disasters and impending future ones.
     Trump accused of rape and the world looks away and finally the GOP, in its standard moral weakness and cowardice, backs Trump, saying it believes him. Believes this so already proven liar and sexual pervert. If he can do it and get away with it then why not every other pervert who now will think again that women are free for the choosing, to be done with as a man wishes. Blue enough yet?
     We have the government - OUR - government, defending itself and its inhumane and as far as I am concerned, criminal behavior in its treatment of children. Yes, the dangerous two year olds who should know better and should have potty trained before their thousand mile trek withtheir parents and the 12 year olds who should have gone to nanny class in anticipation of having to take care of younger children. They should have packed on the weight in anticipation of not getting enough food, water, and done some outward bound types of programs to inure themselves to the harshness of 24/7 bright lights, freezing temperatures with useless aluminum foil pieces of garbage and cold floors. What the hell is the matter with us!!! So are you blue yet, feeling off yet?
     Then we have the news that Mueller will testify on July 17 in open hearings before Congress. Wonder if he will simply repeat his troublesome and indecisive statements for that will only exacerbate the situation. He must come out with defined statements or this situation will never be resolved and Trump will sit there in front of Fox News or Hannity and giggle maniacally as he realizes he has done it again! Dread those tweets!
     But maybe we will be lucky enough and Mueller will gin up some courage and speak the truth, decisively, definitively and we can get on with what needs to be done and don't I wish that someone gets taken away in a real great perp walk!!! Well, at least while I cannot do anything about that, I do know that if the Demented Toddler goes through with his planned Nazi raids on families, Iwill get out there and protest. There is no more time to just ignore and hope it will go away or leave you alone, for again and again, hate never meets its boundaries and the next time - the bells and the pipers could play for you and yours!
     And not to forget our situation with Iran. That damned Toddler has brought us to the edge of the most disastrous war ever, with a definite knowing that nuclear weapons will be involved. Who will use first and who second does not matter, for the world will be in last place, forever. Okay, prep up - food, water, ammo and guns, medicines, and hey, do not forget to watch all those shows, movies and read those books that maybe will teach you and prepare you for the unspeakable. And of course, do not forget to hide under a desk!!
     Sounds all blue, right? So what the hell are we supposed to do. The Democrats are eating each other up. The Republicans have ceded all rights to call themselves honorable and courageous people of morality, the people have thrown up their hands, and the world itself stands there and wonders what to do with this Demented Toddler and his minions who ignore the truths of the world as it smacks them in the face.
     "Blue on blue, heartache on heartache" - remember the song? Bah, humbug!!! I am determined to break the hold of this "off" time on me and try to look away from the world until tonite when the Democrats debate. I hope we find a few winners there. Me, personally, if people would wake up, we need a moderate tending to common sense yet with a heart, a person who knows how to feel and yet be tough enough, a person with experience, a hope for the future  and yes, a woman, and for me, that is Amy Klobuchar. I hope she does well in her debate, be it tonite or tomorrow nite. We need to winnow out those people who got up one day and decided to kill the boredom with a run for Presiednt. This is not the thrid grade class president! Time we get serious or we end up with  - oh, here come those damn off and blue feelings again. Time to listen to some music. Perhaps My Way by Frank Sinatra!