ON BEING TIRED

     Today is a tired day, actually very similar to many days lately. It is a tiredness that goes deep within the bones, to the very marrow of those bones and seemingly, into every cell within the body. And the causes? Ha! Take your choice.
     Of course, we have the physical causes. If one does not sleep too well, averaging less than five hours on a regular basis, or the sleep is interrupted by weird dreams, then one is tired. And, as my little one says, tireder. What is even more depressing is that this lack of the ability to sleep really is without a cure, a permanent one, anyway. Sometimes I need to wait till I am practically out on my feet and then I am able to just at least lie there in bed to gain some rest. Oh, well, enough of the self pity and time to move on.
     So how else is one tired? And I think this is a tired state which affects so many. It is a tired state of the mind, or soul. It is a tired which includes a sense of defeatism, of agony, wondering when this whole mess of a world will either cure itself or do something. Anything! At least then we will be able to prove openly and permanently to those deniers that 'I told you so!" but that would be contradictory to our well being, so anyone have another plan up their sleeve, or are we so tired that we cannot think anymore - or that we have given up, given in to the destroyers?
     This tired state of the mind continues into the political world. It is tiring , destructive tiring, to read of shenanigans during the elections. To read that one was paid by a Republican to collect absentee ballots, against the law and affect a close race in North Carolina, well....all my mind seems to say is, again, North Carolina, again, again a southern state, again, when are we ever going to learn the lessons of the Civil War and Civil Rights. And this chicanery does not stop at the Mason-Dixon line either!
     When are we going to realize that having a demented and crooked man at the helm is not a very good situation? When are we going to act on the barrel full of lies that this man lives in, encourages, and traps others within? When is someone going to shut down his tweeting finger that actually crosses lines of legality so many times, or skirts right along the inner edge? Yesterday he tweeted words that actually, at least in my opinion and in the opinion of others who know much more than I do, that he crossed that line into obstruction of justice and interference with a witness. He also lied about his supposed agreement with China, with even his aides insisting that there is no tariff deal on autos with China.
     So how tired are you? What makes you tired? What can we do or what should we do to remedy the situation? And do not forget the tiredness of so many others in this world of ours. The tired caravan walkers trying for a new and better life. The people of war torn Africa, wandering from one lousy situation to another, so many starving and the women who are consistently raped and beaten, kidnapped and abused and it makes no never mind which side it is.
     Personally speaking, I am tired of the nastiness, of the hate, of the almost hopeless situations around the world. I am tired, in particular, of the vicious and ever growing nastiness of the anti Semitism around the world. Once again, bad situations demand a scapegoat and hey, hey, there they are again, the convenient Jews. And it matters not whether there are even Jews living within the country or living there or living in Israel. Today we read of more tunnels being dug into Israel, this time on the northern border. The goal - to take the war to civilians and kill as many of those as one can. And I am so tired of the world deciding that it is all the fault if Israel! Truly, how dare they defend their civilians? How dare they strike back when attacked? How dare they not lose the equivalent numbers to death? Why do they have the nerve, the gall, to defend themselves?
     I am tired, so tired, in body and soul. I truly am not sure how anyone thinking and caring soul in the world of today, in the world of a probable troubled and disastrous future can avoid being tired. The trick is to find a way to cure this state of being. Any ideas, anyone? Everyone?